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Ruminations

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I haven't done one of these since before Covid.......


In some ways, my life has remained the same: I was already an urban hermit, so needing to stay in and limit social contacts wasn't much of a change. I'm a kidney patient, so it's been necessary to make 3 trips a week to a dialysis center. The biggest change to my health has been a major loss of muscle tone, muscle mass, and stamina. Working in stone (I've done none in more than a year) has become almost undoable. I tried doing a bit on a small piece and hated how hard it was.


So, how to feed my continued need to create? Photography? Upgraded my camera and have been trying to remember as much as I could about photography from a grade school course from 45 years ago. The kind of artist's eye and the process is very different. A lot of what I've done is crap, but there are a few that left me feeling like I actually captured "something", not sure what.


Oh well, the adventure continues.

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Thinkin'

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Dilemma: I'm inclined to be happy to share information about what I do (tools,materials,techniques), especially believing there's nothing really secret about it.And in this age of Google and Youtube, sure there's all kinds of sources on "how to". On the flip side, the world runs on money. When I think about the many thousands of hours and dollars I've invested in this, am I being a fool for giving it away for free? Now that my health issues have left me dependent on government support programs (for which I'm grateful;it's enough to cover the basic bills but still well below the official "poverty" line.), can I afford to be generous?
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It's been a few months since my last entry. Buying another piece of stone and being able to finish a new piece, "Pareidolia", was reassuring, in the sense of proving I could still do it. But at this point, it feels like the accumulating effects of kidney failure are more consistently leaving me fatigued. The dialysis process is keeping me alive and partly functional but regularly tired. I've started a new piece but now feel unsure when I'll feel healthy enough to finish it. Sucks!
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THANKYOU!!!!!!

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I knew my core membership was about to lapse and was sure I wouldn't be able to afford it. It looks like someone has chosen to be my benefactor.Nice to get some good news for a change. Merry whatever!
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New Venture

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Due to my current physical limitations, have been looking for new ways to be creative. DA apparently won't post gifs, so if anyone is interested in seeing my early efforts, I've been putting them up on my FB page Jerry McNeill (Esspegi). Pretty crude at this point.
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